Revelers in the rainbow-washed crowd smiled and cheered this month as the little blond girl in the parade float pageant-waved to the B-52’s “Love Shack.”
Next to the float, the girl’s father, Billy Holder, handed out fliers to the Atlanta Pride Parade crowd. His wife, Melissa, carried a banner along with Jeremy Mullins, the couple’s partner.
“Polyamory: Having simultaneous close emotional relationships with two or more other individuals,” read their purple-lettered banner, embellished with an infinity heart.
The “awws” and waves from the crowd gave way to some puzzled looks and snickers.
“What’s poly?” a woman asked, looking toward a handwritten sign on the float that read “Atlanta Poly Paradise.”
“Multiple partners?” the man next to her guessed.
Sort of. As the concept of open relationships rises in pop culture and political debates, some polyamorous families like the Holders and Mullins see an opportunity to go public and fight stereotypes that polyamory is just swinging, cheating or kinky sex.
It’s not just a fling or a phase for them. It’s an identity. They want to show that polyamory can be a viable alternative to monogamy, even for middle-class, suburban families with children, jobs and house notes.
“We’re not trying to say that monogamy is bad,” said Billy Holder, a 36-year-old carpenter who works at a university in Atlanta. “We’re trying to promote the fact that everyone has a right to develop a relationship structure that works for them.”
For the Holder-Mullins triad, polyamory is three adults living in the same home about 20 miles south of Atlanta. They share bills, housework and childcare for their 9-year-old daughter. They work at the same place, sharing carpooling duties so someone can see their daughter off to school
Surrounded at the parade by drag queens from El Gato Negro nightclub, singers from a gospel choir and supporters of the Libertarian Party of Georgia, Billy Holder didn’t stand out in his jeans, T-shirt and wide-brimmed, sun-shielding hat. That’s sort of the point, he said: to demonstrate that polyamorists, or polys, are just like anybody else.
But, he’s quick to add, “It takes a lot of work and it’s not for everybody.”
It’s a common refrain from long-practicing polys. Jealousy among partners is one thing, but they also face or fear disapproval from neighbors, relatives and coworkers. The Holders and Mullins dealt with rejection from parents and one of Melissa Holder’s sons when they revealed their relationship. They’ve also been the subject of a child welfare probe that ended in no charges being laid.
“We’ve been through it all,” said 35-year-old Jeremy Mullins, a computer programmer.
That’s why they’re coming out, he said — to change the status quo. And yet, their willingness to speak with CNN over the past 18 months came with conditions, such as the request to not name their employers.
Marching in the parade for the fourth year is just one way they’re trying to promote public acceptance of polyamory. Someday, they want to challenge laws that criminalize adultery and cohabitation, Mullins said.
“We want to promote the idea that any relationship is valid as long as it is a choice made by consenting adults,” he said. “In this regard, and as in most things, promoting public acceptance is the first step.”
It’s an uphill battle. Many traditional marriage counselors and relationship therapists discourage non-monogamy, and in the absence of more research on the long-term effects of polyamory, modern science and academia hasn’t reached a consensus on whether it’s a healthy relationship structure.
Even among a crowd as colorful as the Pride Parade, the giggles and questions suggest polyamory is still a way of life that’s on the fringes.
‘Polyamory ain’t for sissies’
According to the flier Billy Holder handed out at the Pride Parade, which borrowed from The Polyamory Society and More than Two, there are many ways to define polyamory.
“Polyamory is the nonpossessive, honest, responsible and ethical philosophy and practice of loving multiple people simultaneously,” it said.
“Polyamory is not a swing club or group.”
“Polyamory is not about recreational or promiscuous sex.”
Otherwise, there are no universal rules for “how it works,” one of the most common question polys say they hear, Holder said. The most common dynamic tends to start with a couple, married or unmarried, who might identify as straight, gay or bisexual. Guidelines are set within each relationship — ideally, a negotiated framework of communication based on trust and honesty, he said.
For each of the 12 people walking with the Holders-Mullins triad in the Atlanta Pride Parade, polyamory works differently. For example, Mark, a tall, bespectacled computer programmer, has been happily married to his wife, an electrical engineer, for more than a decade. They live alone and have no children, but they’ve been involved with two other couples with children for the past six years. Mark and his wife spend time with the adults and their children doing family-friendly activities but the adults also go out on dates, cuddle and more.
It’s not cheating or swinging, he said, because everyone knows about other partners, whom Mark calls his girlfriends. There is a level of intimacy and emotional attachment that makes them more than friends with benefits or one-night stands, he said.
“I’m more involved in their lives and more aware of their inner thoughts or aspirations; I’m more involved in their long-term happiness,” said Mark, who asked not to use his last name out of concern that he and his wife might face backlash from employers.
“It’s like having a regular, monogamous relationship but having more than one of them.”
It’s unclear how many people identify as polyamorous because, like Mark and his wife, the majority aren’t open about their relationships. Because of the varied forms these non-monogamous relationships take, it’s difficult even to know who to include in such a count, demographer Gary Gates said.
“It’s not completely clear how you would measure this group, since I’m not sure there’s a common terminology around how individuals in polyamorous families identify their relationships to each other and their children,” said Gates, a demographer at the Williams Institute, which conducts research and policy analysis regarding legal issues that affect LGBT populations.
Many poly people stay closeted out of fear of discrimination, social alienation or because they simply prefer privacy, sociologist Elisabeth Sheff writes in her forthcoming book “The Polyamorists Next Door.”
Sheff based her findings on 15 years of research that began with a partner’s request to explore alternatives to monogamy. She continued her research even after her relationship ended, and does not consider herself a polyamorist. But her research led her to believe that polyamory is a “legitimate relationship style that can be tremendously rewarding for adults and provide excellent nurturing for children.”
Making it work, she acknowledges, is “time-consuming, and potentially fraught with emotional booby traps,” she writes. It can be rewarding for some “and a complete disaster for others.”
While some scientists say monogamy is probably not humans’ natural state, and is instead likely a social construct, many therapists say learning to control sexual impulses toward multiple people is a hallmark of emotional maturity.
More often than not, non-monogamy leads to the demise of relationships, said Karen Ruskin, a Boston-area psychotherapist with more than two decades of experience in couples counseling. Instead of focusing on the primary relationship, partners are turning to others for fulfillment.
“Even if non-monogamy is consensual, it’s still a distraction from dealing with each other,” said Ruskin, author of “Dr. Karen’s Marriage Manual.”
“It all goes back to choice. Non-monogamy is choosing to be with someone else instead of being attentive to your spouse when the relationship is troubled.”
Couples can establish rules and parameters to limit jealousy, she said. But in her experience working with couples, “those rules never end up working out for everyone,” she said.
“It has shown to be damaging and destructive to a person as an individual, to the couple’s relationship and the family unit as a whole.”
Indeed, while many associate polyamory with swingers or kinksters, “there are much easier ways to get laid,” said Anita Wagner Illig, founder of online polyamory resource, Practical Polyamory.
Wagner Illig, a self-appointed “poly educator” who gives talks at adult conventions about polyamory, began to identify as poly after her second divorce in the late 1990s. She decided there must be a better way than cheating to have multiple relationships.
Much has changed since then, she said. A generation that grew up amid rising rates of divorce and premarital cohabitation is more accepting of alternatives to monogamy. They grew up on the Internet and can turn on TV series like Showtime’s “Polyamory: Married and Dating” and TLC’s
“Sister Wives,” where they’ll see alternatives to traditional monogamy
Wagner sees this year’s U.S. Supreme Court ruling on same-sex marriage benefits as a sign that society is becoming more accepting of “other kinds of relationships,” she said.
But like many in the poly community, she stops short of believing it could pave the way for multiple legal marriages. Many aren’t looking for
multi-partner marriage, anyway, she said — they just want to feel free to have relationships currently outside the norm without being judged as freaks or outcasts.
“Polyamory,” Wagner Illig warns, “ain’t for sissies.”
‘The poster family for poly’
illy and Melissa Holder met in 1997 at CoastCon, an annual science fiction and fantasy convention held in Biloxi, Mississippi. They were seeing other people in monogamous relationships but Billy thought she was funny and cool. They reunited at the next year’s con, developed a monogamous relationship and married in 1999.
An open relationship first came up in discussion the next year, after cheating allegations against a relative rocked the family. They didn’t know the term “polyamory” until years later, but already saw an opportunity to invite more people into their lives. Billy Holder had always believed that he was “different,” that he wanted to date more than one person at a time, but he wanted to do it with his partner’s knowledge and consent.
“We wanted to be able to be fully honest with each other and trust each other,” he said. “One of us said something to the effect of ‘Why cheat?
If you find someone you are interested in, just talk to me about it.’ We are adults, there is no reason we can’t be honest with each other.”
They decided they were free to date people they met at cons and parties, as long as they told each other. At fan conventions, they’d designate a night for going out with others, with a few straightforward rules: Be safe, be home by dawn and don’t do anything I wouldn’t do. Unprotected sex was off limits. If the relationship appeared to be progressing, they would talk about the need for introductions. If the new person had a partner, he or she needed to know, too.
It wasn’t all bliss, especially in the beginning. Sometimes, Billy would “surprise” Melissa with stories of his exploits before she knew he was seeing someone, or he would bring someone home in the middle of the night.
Still, they continued, and formed their first triad in 2002 with a woman Billy met.
“We all relied on each other emotionally for support,” Billy Holder said. “We didn’t live together, but we were close, we were a unit. When we were together we did everything together.”
They learned that polyamory takes a lot of negotiating to keep jealousy at bay. The Holders don’t like the word “rule” because it sounds rigid, they said, but if there is a rule, it’s “better to ask permission than forgiveness.”
In April 2008, Billy met Jeremy Mullins through a mutual friend on a camping trip. Holder describes himself as “emotionally bisexual.” He wasn’t sexually attracted to Mullins, but found emotional intimacy with him.
Months later, Melissa met Mullins at a gaming convention. The three bonded as a team in a Rock Band tournament. They met again at Atlanta SantaCon — an event where adults party while dressed like Santa — and invited Mullins to Billy’s birthday party on New Year’s Eve 2008.
“I went to that birthday party and basically never left,” Mullins said. He became a regular fixture in the Holder home, making regular trips from Alabama to spend the weekend with them.
Still, it wasn’t easy. Jeremy wanted more time alone with Melissa. If Melissa and Jeremy saw a movie on their date night that Billy wanted to see, he’d get upset. Jeremy felt like he wasn’t experiencing the mundane aspects of family life, only the “highs and lows.”
“The little things that we didn’t talk about, they built up like a pressure cooker and we’d have a fight every six weeks or so,” Billy said. “We realized we needed to do a better job of communicating what bothered us when it bothered us.”
They fine-tuned their communication, and decided their future should include Jeremy, full-time. Billy Holder bought a 4,000-square foot foreclosure in Fayetteville, Georgia, where they moved in 2012. To ensure they don’t run afoul of Georgia bigamy laws, they each have their own rooms, but often share beds at night.
Billy Holder and Mullins aren’t sexually involved, except on occasions when all three are together, “but we are emotionally intimate and share everything on that level,” Mullins said. “We share everything that any other couple would.”
They’re partners around the house, too. Billy is the cook. Jeremy and Melissa clean up. When Melissa grew tired of doing the laundry, she spoke up and they switched roles. When Melissa participates in National Novel Writing Month each year, Billy makes sure she’s plied with food and coffee while Jeremy hangs out with the kids.
“I think we’re a little too boring to be the poster family for poly,” Billy said over a lunch of Papa John’s pizza at their home.
But being poly is nothing if not an ongoing work in progress. Melissa still gets annoyed when Jeremy leaves dirty plates in the sink, or when Billy goes on a tear over a new person he’s met in a bout of what’s commonly known in poly communities as “new relationship energy.”
But now, she doesn’t keep her frustrations to herself anymore.
“We talk early and often. Jealousy is usually fear dressed up as something else,” she said.
In recent years, they’ve decided poly isn’t an experiment — it’s a way of life. They wanted to create a close-to-home community where they could share and reflect on their experiences without being judged.
Walking in the Atlanta Pride Parade is just one way they’re trying to step out in public and celebrate who they are. They’ve auditioned for multiple talk shows and a reality show, but have never made the final cut.
In 2010, they started the Atlanta Polyamory group on Meetup.com — a website that makes it easy for people with common interests to find each other. The group now has more than 700 members among eight subgroups that extend far outside the city. In the past year alone, the group has more than doubled its numbers, a boost that Holder attributes to increased awareness of polyamory.
They also founded Atlanta Polyamory Inc., now called Relationship Equality Foundation, an advocacy group that hosts poly-focused retreats and gatherings.
They’re trying to build a regional community outside the metropolitan hubs known for accepting alternative lifestyles. Other cities had conferences and meetup groups devoted exclusively to polyamory, so why not Atlanta?
‘I wanted something better’
Last year, in a Holiday Inn Select just off the interstate, the Holders led the second Atlanta Poly Weekend, a retreat dedicated exclusively to poly-related issues. It drew people from across the Southeast and as far north as Baltimore.
Some attendees were single or relatively new to polyamory. A couple in their 20s described how they’d been together since their freshman year at Georgia Tech, had married a couple of years earlier, and had opened up their relationship after discussing how they still loved each other, but felt attractions to other people.
“He dates and I flirt but I haven’t actively sought out dates. All that matters is that he’s coming home to me,” said the wife, Michelle, who asked to not use their last name because they haven’t told their families.